Day 10: Something You're Afraid of
My biggest fear is, by far and away, death.
I've always been amazed by people who say they aren't afraid to die. I am terrified. This is partially due to my uncertainty about an afterlife. I have no religious beliefs and no inclination on the afterlife. I'm absolutely terrified that death will be an eternity of nothing-ness.
Along these same lines, I'm scared of suffering. This explains my immense fear of cancer (and other diseases). If I have to go, PLEASE make it quick. I don't want to think about it.
I'm even more afraid of losing a loved one. I have been incredibly lucky and I haven't lost anyone close to me (besides my Grandad). I'm a huge worrier and I say 'I love you' every time that I leave someone important to me.
I'm also afraid that I will die alone. I have these wonderful dreams that I will meet Mr. Right (notice that I didn't say Mr. Perfect), we will get married, and have kids. However, deep down, I worry that I will never find him. I want love more than anything in the world - and I have been blessed with love from family and friends. Now, I'm ready for romantic love...but I worry it won't come.
On a less serious note, I'm also terrified of sharks, moths, cockroaches, and bees. I think that's about it.
i love you charlie. you will find someone that deserves you :) just keep waiting :) xo *throws moth at your neck*
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